So, can I be real on here?
This has been such an emotional week for me. Nothing crazy has happened. Thank God. But I just get in those seasons that I feel like no one understands me but God.
Does anyone feel that way?
Everything emotionally affects me. People think that Satan isn’t real but he is! and if don’t you think he doesn’t have a plan. He does
10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. John 10:10
I’ve been having doubts about my life choices in general. Add that to unnecessary emotions of rage and bitterness. Stressed about projects that I really would rather not do. At the same time, you see people succeed while you are still at square one. You can barely make out a congrats because you are that bitter. It’s even been hard to extend grace to people when you don’t want to.
The enemy really tries to take you out in your spiritual boot camp. I can’t give in. I know that I must try harder. I need to pray more, to fast more, to live on the word.
I find myself saying “Lord, I need you”, more than ever.
I even tell myself, foolishly, “My purpose is at the end of the tunnel.”
How horrible is that statement? To know God is our highest calling. He wants all of us to have a deep understanding of who he is.
I’m learning that…
1) You don’t know the struggle behind a person. You may never understand what led a person to the position they are in now. Sometimes, it takes a lot of years of tests for someone to be on the other side. We must not compare our life to others.
2) God doesn’t go by our timing. Its silly to him. Every season has its purpose. Sometimes we need to pass the same exam a number of times before we learn the lesson.
3) Extend grace and mercy to others because it has been given freely to us. I read this yesterday, There will be no mercy for those who have not shown mercy to others. But if you have been merciful, God will be merciful when he judges you. (James 2:13)
I read this today,
Then King David went in and sat before the LORD and prayed, “Who am I…that you have brought me this far?” 2 Samuel 7:18
Take time to sit and talk with God.
This is my resolution, because through it all, he has brought me this far.